Let me explain myself a bit: Over the years I have lost some loved ones, however I had never had to deal with it up close:
I lost my grandpa and an aunt of mine while I was at the university (far from home), but my mother, being overprotective, told me in both occasions that I didn’t need to come to the funeral, so I didn’t go. It seemed easier not to deal with it at all.
Fast forward to 2020, my wife and I unexpectedly lost our first dog. Three years later, I still haven’t come to terms with it. I feel that I haven’t been able to actually grieve her loss. I still find it difficult to look at old photos of her.
And now, we will probably have to put our other dog to sleep tomorrow, and I am completely at loss. I also lost my job 3 months ago and haven’t found something yet.
I really want to start therapy, I know that I need it, but for the time being it would be an expense that is difficult to afford.
I have also noticed that I am “desensitized” to other people’s hardships- and I feel that this is also connected to the way I was raised.
I guess I would like to read everyone’s thoughts on that.