No one cares about me. Whenever I try to talk to someone about anything I’m always being the biggest inconvenience. There is no excuse good enough. They tell me I can talk to them at any time and then make me feel like the worst person ever for trying. They only want to talk to me when im that upbeat funny guy.
Last night I needed to talk really bad. I was scared id do some stupid shit. I reached out to the dude I help with his problems a lot and he always says I should reach out if I need to talk. When I do he either doesn’t respond to me or is too busy. Last night in particular I was feeling like none of my friends like me or care about me. Turns out they are all at a party without me. I asked my friend and he said it was just a coincidence but that doesn’t make any fucking sense. I’m really hurt. I don’t want to talk to any of them. There’s no why they didn’t do that ok purpose. They just don’t like me and I need to accept that.
I’m tired of being alone.