He do all the things for his own benefit. He tries to have a conversation even on issues but don’t care about the social issues i know he listens to me only for getting into my brain and finding any vulnerability of mine so that he can exploit. Whenever he is searching constantly for things that can make me feel bad i see his eyes are constantly working. He shows a lot of energy and enthusiasm when meeting with people specially new people and people of status bigger than him otherwise subordinates he treats them like shit. Even people equal to him like me he just constantly seeking ways so that he can exploit them socially. He doesn’t hesitate to attack and pointing out things of mine that are inferior to him in his views and making disrespecting remark. He can’t outright do any big mistake but aome things that falls in grey area and tend to be ignored by me he picks them and store for further and can use those behaviour anyday spacially on those days when i am low. Even for some of my personality traits like empathy and introvertness he can make me feel bad. It’s not easy to convey example here. He easily mocked me for having lower facilities than him. Though i might have other things better but it’s not in my nature to belittle someone. When he is on top of his behaviour i can see how his energies increase when someone feels bad even i can see when i am finding hard to come up with defence his excitement increases. The most astonishing thing i noticed is if i say the same thing with higher energy and feeling confidence and happy he doesn’t attack but for same thing if i am saying with low energy and not so happy face it boosts his confidence and proceed to make bigger and bigger personal attack.
I have made some progress like setting clear boundaries, being present and retaliate in the moment, not letting him make me feel bad, not opening with him so much but i think there should be a better way. Even if i do best on these advices there will come a day when i not in good mood and he attacks and make me feel shit for days and even questioning the progress that i have made. This type of people make me question the values and ethics that i hold because he is comfortable and even successful at attacking me at the other hand i am always defending and giving explanation and reason though he just don’t care for understanding the explanation i know. Why i am not attacking this person? I think people who constantly take advantage of others and attack people are more successful on so many level even socially and more importantly peopel respect them and some fear them. I feel some type of personality are curesd to bear all this pain. I feel like i should change my values and personality traits like empathy, introvertness because these don’t serve me but i doubt if that’s possible. It’s a constant work of dealing with outside world and inner self growth and look at the other personality type always living, doing things without having consideration if it’s bad or good.
I talked with ai chatgpt on the same issue. Here is the link
https://chat.openai.com/share/0c32dc35-34fa-44b4-8e1b-c17e105f97b0