Like, I am 17, and I am the one who set it up. I was abused as a kid by my parents, and I am overall a little bit of a black sheep in comparison to most people so. It’s definitely good for me to go.
But I just don’t want to?? Like I do and I don’t. What am I going to tell her? I don’t want to start from talking about my parents, in fact this is a consultation where both me and one of my parents is supposed to come, in order to draw some bigger picture. What I am supposed to tell the therapist… I don’t know I am just scared it is going to be a staring contest lol. Like I have different things to talk about too but where do I even start? And if I do start something else how do I start talking about my parents… I don’t want to tell her I have a bad relationship with them on the first visit because I don’t want the relationship to be solved in any way shape or form and also the relationship is not exactly bad now?
Like I know that this is good longterm but I just… Bruh. And I actually intentionally set the visit up via text, because I was supposed to go to a different therapist like four months ago but I kept changing dates because it was easy in an online system. I already regret this so bad 😭