Im having daily suicidal thoughts for the past year i feel like im “burned out” i feel useless i have no real friends that i can talk to only my half friends classmates but they make fun of me all the time. I feel so unmotivated doing anything. I lost all interest for anything. im “fatiuge” also im sad because im a failure for my dad. My dad was a lawyer a police chief he was even in “secret service” of my country and now he’s in the army and me? Im in a fucking plumbing school. Dad never told me he was proud of me he never told me he loved me and my mom? She doesn’t really care what i do. Im thinking about ending it now because im never gonna be anyone in life im just gonna be a failure. Also my sister died when i was 8 i still have ptsd from it and i cannot forget it and i dont even want to talk about it on here also i have bad ocd. Genuinly it would better to end it now than 10-20-30 years later. Sorry for this being long. Theres more stuff but this is enough writing
