I have developed a bad habit of swearing and shouting when I am alone. It feels like a good way of releasing the anxiety. But I recently found myself shouting in public and embarrassing myself.
There is no pattern for this, and I can barely control myself. It was less intense when I was at work, I would sigh or yawn really loud in a disrespectful way.
This started when I broke up with my partner badly in the year after my father passed away. This might be related to both of the incidents. I feel lonely and lost all the time, since almost no one to communicate with, everyone in my life, coworkers, and family members, they just feel vicious. This might sound a little dramatic, but I have no other way to describe it. Could this be an illness?