Hello, i hope your doing alright. Ive made up my mind and i will end my life today. I dont want to drag anyone down with this but rather just leave my massage so people know what i wanted to say.
Please dont try to talk me out of this, i want this to end, i want my suffer and my missery of a life to end tonight.
I wil grab some painkillers and overdose on them, i know the risks, i know that i have a chance to suffer terribly and/or get brain damage and/or get paralized. I know it will hurt, but i want it to end.
Im on meds for some time now and it never got better, each time i got better, life fucked me up again. I took it as a sign, that i dont belong here and that im just here to feel pain. I know that im weak for doing this but i wont or rather cant live like this anymore.
Fuck, i dont want to make anyone feel bad, but i want to die, i hope you all can understand. I will go through with this but befkre i do, i want to thank my online friends who made my life better.
This massage goes to you, evie, gourav, franzi and thunder. I know that i always told you that im fine, im sorry for lieing to you, i love you guys and i cant hurt you. You are god people and i want you to live your lifes to the fullest, please, forget as fast as possible that i existed, i want you guys to be happy.
And i want to ask for forgiveness, as i know that after i send you this that you will all be sad or even devestated. I want to ask you if you could forgive me for this and just be you. Please dont change yourself because of me, i love you how you are so please be yourself. Keep being happy, keep being the amazing people you are, and most importantly, meet each other.
And for everyone reading this, please forgive me as well, as i wont be here for a long time anymore then only thing i can do is ask for forgiveness, so i ask for you to forgive me.
Im sorry that im doing this, but i promised mysepf that i will leave a massage on paper for my famoly and friends, and one on the internet for my online friends and everyone who has read this.
Thank you, thank you for reading my last words. It means a lot.
I wil always be there for you. Thank you.
Your fellow furry Wémeeja
Results: my brother stopped me