As I'm focusing more on fixing my mental health recently, I'm realizing that I never really got a real childhood, and never got to really develop who I am.
My parents were extremely overbearing (and religious, and a little abusive now I realize), so I already didn't get to do much outside the house or have many experiences. Combine that with lifelong depression/anxiety and ADHD (all undiagnosed back then, "I just needed to eat better" -_- ), and all I really did as a kid and teen was school, and stay in my room.
I didn't have any friends except some online (they were another problem), didn't get really any social experience, didn't date until my 20s, didn't get to try out different things to see what I like, didn't get to hold my own opinions, and didn't get the help i needed until now.
And now, I just feel hollow. I don't know who I am, I don't know what I like or dislike, I don't know what I want. And I feel like it's too late to figure any of that out.