I physically cannot get out of my bed, i don’t shower for months, i eat 2x a day, i haven’t brushed my teeth in years, i wear clothes a week at a time, i have gained 150 lbs since i started but i managed to drop 50 but i am still so unfit i cannot clean my room without breaks.
I cant go downstairs because my parents always end up yelling/arguing with me over something, there is nothing upstairs to do other than play xbox/phone/laptop.
I cannot work out, i cannot drink more water, caffeine doesn’t do anything for me, my medication stopped working 2 years ago and thats when i started this.
I even used to be the best student at my school now i am at risk of being kicked out for grades and i call off work 2x a week.
This is all caused by apathy syndrome(i do not have depression or any form of it, i never have, but i have no motivations and i never have had goals, i abandon goals because i see them as useless because i don’t need them to live and i cant keep them if i try) and i don’t know how to fix it because i physically cannot get motivation to, it immediately turns into frustration and i get no where.