I started taking drugs, first was just recreational but then because I'm my high functioning anxiety that also cripples me from being able to do a lot of things, I started getting addicted to xanax, which I'm not anymore, then I started smoking meth and it became the only thing that'd help me actually take action in my life, go to the appointments, plan out my day, map out my next 6 months, work on my goals, apply for jobs go to interviews etc etc
I only took it because the only time I'd leave my room/bed is if I did, before I even touched it I was like that. Think I have undiagnosed adhd or something mixed with extreme anxiety because nothing fixed it even meditation, and it's hard to exercise when you physically just can't leave your room or bed, and I got dreams and I just couldn't stay motivated or get things done in life without the assistance of amphetamines as stupid as that sounds, trust me im a person who was never meant to touch that drug but I literally flunked out of university/college because I legit just couldn't get things done let alone show up to class. Didn't work for years. Wasted so much time. Only time I got anything done is when I was smoking meth. Sadly.
I need help. I've spoken to a doctor but it's like they think im just trying to get drugs but I truly truly need help. It's effecting my relationship and I'm always so paranoid and anxious, even before touching the amphetamines.
I'm struggling with my productivity, I can't get anything done and I've been like this for a long time
I'm sure you remember me coming to you in the past about not being able to get things done
I had to drop out of uni again because I was falling well behind but I reenrolled for next year to hopefully do better.
I haven't had a job in years and I don't do anything with myself but I have so many goals and aspirations
I've started drinking lots of coffee just to be able to be able to get out of the house
I just feel like there's an underlying issue with my brain chemistry as I don't seem like everyone else, everyone I know is not like this
I thought my lack of focus and procrastination was cause I was depressed but I'm on the anti depressants and It feels like I'm throwing my life away because I can't stick to anything
Racing thoughts
Always distracted
I've noticed this has been an ongoing thing for me for a long time now I just never have the focus or drive to do anything it feels like my brain and life is one big fog
It's having an impact on my life and I can't afford to continue how I'm going. I need assistance to overcome these symptoms
It feels like I'm just useless and lazy because i cant focus or motivate myself to do abything i want to do in life but even when I do start working and studying I'm still the same. I'm struggling.
I only took it because the only time I'd leave my room/bed is if I did, before I even touched it I was like that. Think I have undiagnosed adhd because I couldn't do anything and I got dreams and I just couldn't stay motivated or focus and I just couldn't get things done in life without the assistance of amphetamines as stupid as that sounds, trust me im a person who was never meant to touch that drug but I literally flunked out of university/college because I legit just couldn't get things done. Didn't work for years. Wasted so much time. Only time I got anything done is when I was smoking meth. Sadly.Being tired all the time Gaming-addiction
Rejection sensitivity
It is hard to get diagnosed as an adult and I worry that they think I am just looking to get drugs. I feel like I have had a huge burden my entire life and I think it is adhd