I have been worrying so much about this. I am beyond depressed about it. I feel my brain slipping out of my hands. And after today, I know that this is the last straw for me. I was answering the phone at work and when I was asked about it not even 2 seconds later, I could not recall what was said to me not even a minute before. (This always happens, my colleagues just look at me with genuine concern everyday) When she asked, I sat there in silence genuinely trying to remember what was said to me. I freaked out basically had a panic attack because it’s frustrating that I have been dealing with this for the past couple of years. It has gotten worse. I am always overthinking so when someone is talking to me I am in my own head talking to myself accidentally ALL THE TIME. I have not been comprehending correctly and it has been affecting my social, work and school life. With school, I haven’t been able to complete a assignment correctly in a year and a half as an upcoming SENIOR in COLLEGE! I feel like I can’t work any job at all because I simply can’t listen to or remember anything to save my life. And the kicker is I have been working here for 5 years! I know how to do everything but my brain has forgotten literally every single thing. WTF! If I lose this job I genuinely feel like I can’t work any other job. I feel like I am only decent at this job now is because I started learning it before I starting losing my brain completely. I am completely burned out. I don’t feel smart. In my social life. I stumble over my words. I can’t engage. I feel stupid. And I am someone who was so social and on the student council in high school! I am so worthless. There is nothing I can do. Is there any tips on to stop overthinking. I am thinking myself into death traps. I can’t stop. I’m going insane.
