I am an 18 year old boy about to join college. I feel like I have a backlog of movies, shows and webseries to watch. I have suffered from clinical depression, OCD and anxiety for the past few years and have developed a distorted view of the world. Like I am scared about how I will find common ground in college…i feel sort of out of touch with GenZ.
Also, I have started to develop a liking for topics of serious importance and have started reading The Economist etc and watch serious YouTube channels. And if i keep improving myself and learning this stuff, I'm afraid all i will talk about with new people is what i learned. And this might lead to the feelings of alienation and make me unrelatable and as a result unlikable.
My predicament is primarily this: catching up with movies and memes and stuff and also improving my knowledge without coming across as unrelatable.
For example, if i am trying to watch a new show, this thought will come in my mind: what if i enjoy and learn new info from this show and keep talking about it when i meet someone new and they might not know about it and feel alienated?
I'm not able to do anything and feel debilitated. This might seem trivial but it's killing me on the inside.