As if they actually enjoy life, like they can laugh at things they find funny, like they actually get enjoyment from doing basic things. Is that even possible? I'm pretty sure I have depression but am trying to get diagnosed, and I see all these people around me, generally normal people, going out constantly, seeing cool places, just living their life, meeting people, etc. Can you still do that as a mentally ill person? I make plans in my head but day by day I find it so difficult to actually follow through and go out, even if I want to so badly. There always seems to be some mental block stopping me from just having enjoyment and doing things. I'll give one example of someone who I'm mesmerized by (in this context): Quensadilla. She genuinely seems so happy all the time, being quick to crack jokes, so witty and is always hanging out with friends, laughing, just being herself. But at the same time she also claims to be mentally ill? As someone who is, how the fuck is she like that while also being mentally ill? I just don't understand…am I missing something? Are y'all also able to do normal people things, or am I just a weird exception and have to struggle for the rest of my life? Like, will it ever be possible for me one day to human the way other people seem to?
