I really hate myself sometimes I hate this depression I hate this anxiety I hate this autism I hate my body I hate my face I hate the way I speak I hate this paranoia I hate the random panic attacks I hate that I'm a fat piece of shit I wish I could just drown my sorrows in alcohol and just be done with my life sometimes even when good things happen my depression is like welp I geuss your gonna feel terrible today aren't ya there's also seldom few things I'm actually good at and I'm a pretty slow learner and most people aren't patient with that sort of thing I feel like my life has no value honestly I don't know what I expect people to say honestly
