I just recently got out of jail for my first time ever at 18 served 2ish months and i got sober and on track after being released and moving back with my mother. So before i was used to just working full time and doing drugs no relationships or anything so recently after getting free i met a girl online and we got close and met each other and everything went great, but i did something as a joke but ended up looking like i was trying to hook up with a ex and she found out from the exs boyfriend and thinks im cheating even tho this ex has a guy and is also completely nothing like me or anything id ever like and i explained this to my girl over and kept apologizing and doing everything possible voice messages pics everything and i think we might be done she blocked my insta phone number went to voicemail the snapchat still says its fine but i have a awful feeling im going to wake up and see her gone. I know im attached and over emotional but i am a romantic and when i get with a girl its to marry not to fuck and i would absolutely never cheat on my woman ive been the one cheated on and dumped every relationship ive had so i know well how it feels so i prayed tonight hoping she will let me earn her trust back but if not i will definitely be pretty depressed for a while but ill manage like always sorry for the rant i just needed to get it out it hurts me so much i just wanna cry and punch myself i know im gonna sleep like absolute shit and i deserve it
