Ever since I've been a kid, I've always been slow at completing tasks and understanding basic instructions. Now that I am an adult (21), I seem to lag behind even further at work because instructions just sound like a wall of words to me, and when I do start a task after asking 1000 times It takes me forever to get it done because no matter how fast I think I'm moving, it's slower than everyone else.
I've always needed visual representations to understand concepts. When I was in school, I had to see how to physically solve an equation or how to find and correct grammatical mistakes in English. Written or verbal explanations never made sense to me. I was never tested for a learning disorder (I had all A's until high school because I could never do homework, no matter how much it stressed me out when I realized I didn't do it), even though it took a good bit for me to grasp a concept.
I was diagnosed with adhd at 18, and the meds tend to help my ability to stay focused on a task and improve my efficiency, but verbal/written instructions make no sense unless repeated multiple times or slowly as I'm doing the task. And even then it takes me days or weeks to get it down without help. I have to have someone physically walk me through a process to grasp anything, even if I understand all the other underlying concepts most people can recall and use to complete something.
I'm lost