Hi, im 19/f and i have an older sister 20/f. Lets call her Lena.
She was always difficult. I couldnt play my new games i got for my birthday, cause she wanted to play and i was only allowed to watch. She would steal all the money i would have saved and told me its no wonder that i dont have any friends. So childhood was difficult.
We still live together with our mother and even tho im not a doormat anymore, i dont think she changed at all.
Lena still steals all my money. After i locked my room she stole my key to make a copy so she can still break in. Im so scared to get Ritalin (something i need for my adhd) because i know Lena will steal it.
She judges me for not being active and social even tho i have depressions and ocd. (Officially diagnosed). She doesnt clean or help with anything. She just lets everyone else do her mess for her.
She wanted to make a present for her boyfriend and took my books to cut out letters without asking
After i told her i dont think its okay to make a nazi salute (big deal in germany) she accused me of calling her a nazi and that i dont have any right to complain as a white person and then cried to my mother because i called her a nazi without any reason.
I just cant do it anymore. I hate her, she is awful. One time Lena got 3000€ from my grandfather to get her driver license and a car. She spended all the money on alcohol for her friends. While my mother didnt know how she is supposed to buy food, she spended 3000€ on alcohol for her friends. Not even herself. How evil can a person be?
She doesnt even realise it. She thinks she is always the victim. Way too smart for me. Way too mature for me. She is just superior and i cant tell her anything.
It so awful for my mental health. She always screams than i say anything against her and i cant have stuff without Lena taking or destryoing it. I cant move out now and i dont know what to do.