so went to the doctors (for th second time) and expalined what was going on, hoping that beacause i've had such a drastic change in 2 months that something like a i duuno a mental health diagnosis maybe? could be done somewhere even if the last 'psychiatrist' refered me to someone. The reason why i dont like the 'psychiatrist' is because he said i wasn't mentally ill just autistic. despite over a phone call saying BPD could be an answer but wasnt officially diagnosed.
I cant get anyone else, the 'psychiatrist' has to refer me and im a litte scepical because of how i was treated by him and his staff.
but now im in my GP doctors office and he is obviously going to offer me something that is a plaster not a solution which would be a diagnosis. i took citalipram in 2018 due to something that caused me anxiety (won't go into it take too long). I thought i was going to kill myself because of that medication. and here he is just like that 'psychiatrist' using ASD as an excuse saying "you wont take this medication because your aspergers makes you too ridged" and then "if 100 people had the same experience a high (forget the number) of people would try something else". "its your autism".
Not that is scared the absolute crap out of me.
i also got told by my GP (like the 'psychiatrist' did), "you will only except the diagnosis if you agree wih it". well yes because i need to know what gong on in my head and if the diagnosis doesnt fit that then i haven't explained myself properly (due to ADHD), or its undescribable.
im not saying im not ASD and if i am its a small part of me, but what i am going through isn't that!
I told him that my sleep is out of whack (like not sleeping at all) he said it was becase i was anxious about today, never took much note of he fact im living on noodles and fruit bars because the thought of eating makes me feel sick.
i told him i was better off and shut the door, and shut the door.