Honestly I didn’t realize how obsessed/fixated I get on certain things. What does this mean? I get so obsessed with random stuff and this can go on for months/weeks. For example I struggled with limerence due to trauma so I obsessed over this guy in HS who was nice, recently I honestly didn’t mean to dm him but I got fixated on him again because of graduation season it reminded me of him. I gave off the wrong impression and now he left me on read. Embarrassing to say the least.
Now I’ve become really fixated on academics because I found out I have a 4.0 GPA so I can’t stop obsessing over wanting to get into Ivy League schools. To which I’m hopeful I can get into but it’s only been a day I’m scared I’m going to fail and loose the motivation and excitement in the next two weeks. That’s always my time stamp 2 weeks. I don’t get why I become so obsessed with stuff I literally spent all day non stop reading and watching videos about so and so prestigious schools I want to get into. My chances are slim considering I just started college and I have no extracurriculars or leadership qualities. I’m scared to be a failure.
