I left school right after my GCSEs finished because of my depression and anxiety hoping for help and two years later I’ve received none oh not like I’ve also just suffered from one of the most traumatic experiences of my life when my dad died super suddenly. I just feel so forgotten and lonely what did I do to deserve this I’m kind, never sad a bad thing about anybody in my life and never been miserable towards people even worse it was my friend of 10 years who has forgotten about me it’s been 10 months and nothing from her…. 🙁 I’ve never had anybody ask me if I’m ok in over a year , infact more people have laughed at me for being “ fatherless”. Doesnt help I’ve got autism which I do don’t show all the key signs of like stimming meltdowns and patterns which has also thrown me into doubt if I’m even really autistic I mean the only symptoms of it are all mental like extreme emotion , paranoia, distrust and can’t hold a conversation. Why does everything I do have to be cretitied like people just criticise me and I hate that because it makes me think they hate me. All this sitting in my head and nobody cares why do I even bother nobody will see this. I have exstream lonliness
