i’ve had anxiety my WHOLE life. even things from when i was just a “shy” child, i now know it was down to anxiety. i worry about absolutely every possible thing. from the second i wake up to the second i go to sleep. it’s now even seeping into my dreams where i get nightmares of situations that have previously happened, or my worst nightmares that worry me the most. it’s not just a “oh i’m worry about this thing that everyone worries about”, it’s an abnormal amount of worrying about things that aren’t normal. my anxiety surrounding my health has gotten increasingly worse recently due to so many bugs going round the uk, and i just want it to stop. i’m so drained all the time just from my brain being on overload 24/7! i feel so guilty that i’m like this cos even though he says it’s fine and comforts me, i can’t help but feel like a burden on my bf. i’m always told “you worry too much! stop worrying” but i physically can’t. i’m only 19 and strongly debating trying medication to see if that helps, but i’m terrified i’ll always be this way. because i don’t think i could continue to be depressed due to my anxiety.
