Very sorry for any grammar mistakes. Unfortunately, English isn’t my native language.
My (F18) parents are always so attentive and helpful towards my younger sister and her mental health. Not too long ago, they told me that she had admitted to having a girlfriend. My parents are very religious people which led to them taking this issue very seriously. I won't go into detail regarding the whole ordeal but it was bad. My-sister-tried-to-run-away-from-home bad. My parents decided to bring her to a therapist due to this and other issues. From then on, my sister has been seeing a therapist very frequently. I don't like to boast but I do deem myself as a supportive person and I have been nothing but very helpful regarding the situation wuth my sister.
However, I've been facing a lot of issues for a long time and all l ever wanted was to seek proper help that isn't from a school counsellor who reduces my feelings to typical "high school girl" feelings. I just finished my final exam and graduated school which means that appointments won't bother my studying schedule. I wish I could put into words about my issues but l've always found it difficult. What's odd is that my parents acknowledge my severe anxiety and they never fail point it out – along with multiple other problems I face. They mentioned bringing me as they suspect I'm autistic but nothing has been done yet they constantly make jokes on my suspected autism which led me to believe they were simply joking all this while. I'm genuinely clueless and I physically can't bring myself to be vulnerable about this to them or ask them to take me to a psychiatrist. I don't know what to do.
I might've missed out on some things as I wrote on a whim while feeling distressed. Please give me a bit of guidance. I'd really appreciate it. If anyone wants more details, feel free to ask and I'll do my best to answer your questions. Thank you!