Is it normal that I’m conscious that I’m gaslighting myself, but also still partially believe I’m fine? I just broke a years long streak of unconscious denial over possible trauma and physical/emotional abuse from my childhood, but I still can’t get over it, I think think that it “doesn’t classify as abuse” and that “people have gone through worse”, I gaslight myself into saying that I just can’t have gone through trauma, it’s a ridiculous idea. Yet, the few people I’ve talked to (some of which have experienced abuse too) say that what people did to me was just fucked up, massively. I’m able to say I suffered abuse, but when I really think into what I just said I can’t get myself to believe it, when I say it it doesn’t sit right with me, almost feels like I’m faking it. I don’t know what to do.
