Everything is just so messed up. I thought I was doing better, that I'm getting ok. Maybe I was, but again, I'm back in the dark corner.
I was getting put of my comfort zone, I was trying new things, getting interested in things, I was happy.
But with no apparent reason (or so i thought) i suddenly felt lost. I lose the drive, the motivation, and the interest.
I wanted to cry all the time, i wanted to open up to my family, i know they can understand, and maybe they can help, but at the same time i feel like they will just invalidate my feeling, that they will judge me.
It feels like everything is falling apart. It just feels so hopeless and its terrifying.