I am always afraid. Afraid of talking to people, afraid of asking for help, afraid of taking an initiative, afraid to express. I am scared to do anything. I can't even start a conversation.
I cant even buy a a newspaper as simple as that i returned back a dozen of times when i went to buy it. Happened in lot of places to. Want to study but afraid to take an initiative. Stuck at a job with no idea what i am doing. No job satisfaction, increase in self talk, depression, irritation, overthinking. Afraid to fall, fail, get hurt, lose someone.
Its like wherever i go their is large set of eyes looking at me just wanting to see me fail and get a laugh out of it. Getting out of the house by being cautious as not to run in someone i know. Please help me if this continues i am gonna be sad for my lifetime.