Trigger warning for non-explicit mention of self harm.
I can handle ocd symptoms, I can handle panic attacks, I can handle mood swings, but the desire to self-injure is getting overwhelming. It’s consuming me, I fear that I’m running out of time.
If I get stitches again, I will lose my job. I know this to be a fact. My job has a wonderful environment, decent pay for a college student, and most of the people I care about.
But now, I’m starting to wonder if I’d be better off leaving, so that they don’t have to see me suffer, see me at my worst. I don’t want to be a source of sadness and worry.
I’m in therapy and weekly psych appointments. Hospitalization would also mean losing my job.
What do I do?