(I think) I am not feeling suicidal or depressed, I just don’t like the human experience. I feel like a primitive animal in a world that seems, chaotic, unfair, cruel and mostly messed up. I try to look at the brighter side but I'm a rather cynical person so I don’t really find joy in the small things of daily life. I've going to therapy for years and the only answer I get is "Get something you would like to spend your time doing" I try to engage in activities, but everything ends up boring me. I feel like everything is irrelevant at the face of a finite life. A friend of mine has told me "Life is a gift you are given" But I don’t want that gift. I don’t wan't to die neither, I just wish I did'n exist to begin with. Has anyone been through a similar experience?
