I am an actor in everyday life
I find it extremely difficult to connect with other people. If one of the people around me read this statement, nobody would think that I said it. Why? Because I'm an incredibly good actress who has perfected her role over the years. I'll try to explain it in a way that's easy to understand: I grew up feeling lonely and misunderstood even as a child, and the people around me cared about me almost too much. As a child and also as a teenager, I always started crying extremely quickly, seemingly for no reason. Everywhere. At any time. Nobody knew why. No one could help me. Since then, I was automatically labeled a hypersensitive drama queen. And it's not necessarily any different today. Except that I don't cry so easily anymore, I act instead. And I often go home after meetings feeling empty and not really happy. There are at most 2-3 people with whom I feel extremely safe and free. Where I don't pretend and can just be myself. Nobody would expect that from me because I always talk so much and like to overshare etc. Well, I just wanted to share this thought. If any of you feel the same way, please share it with me!