I am 30F and all through my life which I can think of always wants somehow that something bad should happen to me like accident, going into coma, cancer or anything serious which can put me on priority for care and attention. Then if there's any situation when I get care and attention I don't like that I want people to leave me alone. There's just few certain people for certain situations I want them to care then and else I am fine and when it's not done or met it hurts.
Can anyone relate to this and understood why this behavior pattern exist?