I just survived a suicide attempt. My advice is don't even try it, stop thinking about it don't do it
I still feel like crap even worse now I'm in some pain, but I'm still breathing and the whole-time people kept saying to me 'you have so much to live for'
No, I feel like I don't what do they see in me? Youth? Beauty? Regret? A red puffy face starring at them crying her eyes out again?
I don't know what people see in me, I'm alone but I'm here I'm breathing I had some pineapple even, but I still feel doubt, but I wish I could go back, I wish I never did that, I wish I could say I never did,
But I did do it and from one sad fool to another, please don't do it I regret so much and I'm in so much pain but I'm glad I'm here and I'm glad you're here too,
6/13/24: the day I did it, the day I regret, It was warm sunny and my hair looked good I could have gone for a walk, a jog, played video games, read a book, got lunch, but I didn't, and I regret it. I want to vomit I'm in so much pain and it wasn't worth it but I'll always remember
The look on my mother's face, the screaming of the patents around me, the little girl in the room next to me who just wanted to play bunny, and the little girl I became when the reality hit me eating my pineapple well my sitter watched, food is social and there I was all alone, no movie or family, just me and a plate of food I didn't want it was hard to look at that food when I always cooked for many but it was just me and I couldn't share that hit me, and so did the bag of fluid they gave me. So, I asked to go to the bathroom like a dog, and Nurses came in to unhook me from the machines and I walked down with my sitter. I didn't recognize the girl in the mirror and I cried and kept crying all the way back to my room.
It's been 2 weeks since i wrote that first bit, I'm better now I still regret it and my boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me over it but I'm here I'm still breathing I'm still going. If no one told you today I love you even if you feel alone we both share a bad mind and so as a friend and a sister from another mister
I love you and don't do it.