I feel like a bad person sometimes. I don't mean to be. I have so many unresolved trauma and patterns. I sabotage my friendships and relationships. So I tend to keep to myself. To not hurt the people I care about. Everyone thinks i'm just a selfish douchbag. Doesn't care about anyone. I do, just can't show it off the way people need me to. I have too much shit going on I might need more than just therapy. I recently started dating someone. He makes me so happy but I have to end it before I consume him with my mental health. I mean, I kinda already have. I feel so sorry for trying to make things work even when I know it would not. I can't take this anymore. I'm so fucking lonely.
