I don’t know how to explain it but I don’t feel real. I live in my head I have this fake version on myself that I live through and sometimes I snap back to reality and I don’t feel alive like I am biologically I know that but I’m not living you know what I mean. This sounds odd but I don’t recognize my body if that makes sense it’s like I’m not there I’m just witnessing life around me with out a body of that makes sense and I don’t know why I’m pretty young going to college this summer but in my short-ish life I’ve never felt like I’m here if that makes sense and I think sometimes is desperately wrong with me and I don’t know what
