I (19f) feel like I can only feel happiness if someone gives me attention. I guess it really started when I started posting on social media(on my main account), where I mainly posted my drawings, which sometimes got comments and after a while, the only reason i posted anything was for attention, i don't even enjoy drawing anymore, the only reason i do it is to post it for attention. I wanted more though, so I started sharing pictures of myself, mainly selfies, I only sent revealing pictures in DMs. I keep doing it, even if its mostly older men who talk to me. I just know that it's probably not healthy that my entire mood, self worth, confidence depends on how much attention i get. My guess for why im like this, is that i grew up alone pretty much, i spent most of my life in my room, didn't really have a relationship with my parents, we just existed in the same house. So maybe because i was never really seen or cared about, that's why i want it so much? I don't know, i thought i'd ask, maybe someone can help explain it because i don't want to be like this, I just don't know how I could stop feeling this way.
