i'm 15. i've been having really bad issues with food and my body image lately. it got triggered when i was about to go out and tried on a coat from 3 years ago. it fit, but it was tight. it pissed me off and i started working out. i didn't eat anything the entire day yesterday, and today i completely binged. i ate a sandwich and i ate more things and i felt fucking gross. i was overwhelmed. i went to the bathroom and dug my fingers down my throat to try and get it out before my body absorbed it but i couldn't. i just couldn't. my legs were shaking and i was sobbing. i was already salivating. i felt like absolute shit. i just feel so bad. i want to be normal so fucking bad. i wanna eat peacefully, i wanna stop giving a crap about such stupid things like your weight and body. but i *am* overweight. have been almost my entire life and it's interfering with my physical health too. i cant do this. i wanna go to therapy but i have a lot of exams going on and my mom won't let me do it cause it might affect my academic progress. goodness this is fucking pathetic
