As the title suggests, how do I control my thoughts? I have been very anxious and depressed for some time now more than my usual self. To put my mind at ease and possibly have some sense of joy in life my friends and I went to an amusement park today. I thought it might be a pleasant change from my daily routine of searching for a job. The entire time I was in the park, I was constantly just dredging up about my life and how I am a piece of shit who is not even worth the cloth on his body. I didn't enjoy at all and almost acted like a brain-dead person the entire day.
Any help or suggestions is much appreciated.
PS. I cannot go to a therapist because where I am I will not be able to afford a therapist being jobless.