My whole life it feels like I’m nobody’s first choice, specifically as a friend. In high school I had about 2 close friends and it seemed like friendships would just come so naturally to other people. My friends had a ton of other friends and I was clearly the pity invite to all the parties. Fast forward to college, I really tried to be someone I was not. I partied all the time, ended up joining the most “popular” sorority on campus and then even ended up being the president of said sorority. It was exhausting looking back on it. However, my thought process was that nobody really liked me for me in high school and I had to create a new persona to gain friends. I only really talk to 2-3 people from college. I am an introvert, but I don’t like to be socially isolated either. My boyfriend is a social butterfly and it friends with just about everyone and can make a new friend so easily. I’m stuck on apps like bumble bff to try to catch up to him so I don’t look like a loser. (Not much luck yet) I guess I just need some advice on how to make friends because I can’t really make friends when I’m myself and I can’t keep friends when I pretend to be someone I’m not.
