There is always, ALWAYS something to be fucking upset about. I hate how I cant show it on my face, hate that I cant fucking get violent. My face doesn't change it just doesn't. I always smile uncontrollably, laugh like my facial expression is not in my control. I feel so angry all the time. I want to hit myself numb but I'm alone with my mom in this fucking house and she will hear me if I hit myself. She will fucking hear me and she will stop bitching and it will only frustrate me further more. Angry just so angry so pissed but I cant show it I can't I fucking can't. My stomach turn my hands shake and itch to a blow to my body. But other than that. Nothing. A bullet to my head would fix me
