I don't feel like writing munch so i'll be brief.
I don't like the way i have lived until now and it haunt me, shame, frustration, anger etc… . But i still find myself being happy frome time to time as if i have escaped the hole i was in but then it just come crashing down again.
The better i feel in my up moment the worst it get in my down periods and i say periods cause they last longer than the happy time.
Realy feels like something chasing after me but i don't know what.