I am gay (straight passing) and live in a smaller, republican, midwest state. I know lots of other gay people and have many queer friends, yet I've never been asked out, never held hands, hardly even talked to people that I would like romantically. It's not that I don't put myself out there or that I am conventionally unattractive, in fact, I am relatively popular in my city and though I could lose a couple pounds, find myself relatively attractive. I've used dating apps for years, tried long and short distance, even reevaluated and lowered my standards to be embarrassingly low. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong. I try my hardest to be interesting and ask lots of questions and I never leave people on delivered or not give them a chance. I just feel like by now something should have sparked. I want to know what butterflies feel like so bad. I'm getting older and I'm so scared to start aging and "getting ugly" before I can have a real date. I feel like I will be virgin and celibate until I die. I was content with my status growing up, but now it is starting to get to my mental health. I've been growing increasingly lonely and depressed despite having many friends. I'm starting to think I'm just ugly. What am I doing wrong.
