I'm a young boy who grew up In India, I've always done well in school, used to be the first one to answer, used to get a+ grades, used to be sporty, used to have friends and have a good relationship with my parents. Then 2020 came, COVID started, schools shut, and then one of my friends had a birthday party where a game named minecraft was involved, i requested my mom to pay for it and she did cause at that point I was a good kid. Little did I know for the next 4 years and continuing it would destroy my life… I got hooked on which caused problems between my mom and I, I started eventually behaving very rude with her and was violent in some cases too, my dad works on the ship as a captain and is away half the year so he wasn't here to sort things out. This continued for 3 years till 2023, in December 2022 a new girl joined our school, we spoke and I eventually fell in love but she played me which resulted of me joining the gym, I'm 14 with an above average physique weighing in at 60 kgs, I started boxing aswell. My dad hated it and he kept beating me and every night he would give me lectures. He would be a nightmare in my life. He would hate how I was eating to much and going to the gym etc but I followed my ways, I got a small number recently which turned out to be .5 in both eyes, that caused me a lot of emotional pain as a sports person, my dad eventually stopped my boxing and got me into cricket. I had career stress too, my school kicked me out cause I couldn't follow their ways of teaching, like I'm an active guy and they expect me to be able to sit down for 8 hrs a day??? My entire family lives in usa except for me, my younger brother, my mom and my dad, my mother never really understand me and always makes me feel like I'm a rat in the house, every night she tells my younger brother to not be influenced by me and to stay away from me, all this stress combines has caused me to become a monster and I become violent with my mom whenever she screams at me. I hate myself for doing so but I just can't control my anger, I don't believe in therapists. I don't know what to do. My brother is a lot more succesful, he is a nation level swimmer at 11, he has so many more friends than me, I haven't met with a friend since over a year, my dad has stopped me from talking to my entire extended family, I have no one in my life except for my dying dream of being a cricketer, I'm currently being home schooled with teachers who I hate, I have no social life, I only have a physique to my name… Other parents use me as a role model for their kids not knowing the truth.i went from being a happy, funny, sporty, smart kid to a lonely, stupid, kid with parents who don't understand him. But wait. I have a good physique…
I might seem like a dumb kid who is pissed cause he has to do his homework but i don't even give a shit anymore cause that's what the world thinks about me anyways…
