saw a transfemme girl on the internet and have some degree of interaction with her but thats about as far as it will ever go because its a god damn cam site.
that said i am genuinely getting the sense i am somehow infatuated .
cant get this person out of my mind and man it kills my mood.
say what you like im not particularly bothered i like what i like and i am who i am . thats life baby lol
just imagine its a girl or a guy if your a male or female i think essentially i am bisexual and the trans identity magnifies this . even worse when the trans individual displays traits of a hot female and attractive male not really into males per say but some trans i kind of digging. guess thats just the way i am .
The issue is becoming infatuated with an online persona and looking around at reality and doesn’t match up to what my brain enjoys realistically
basically i need to get this person out of my mind but for some reason they also provide me motivation to improve my life while also feeling somewhat miserable.
internet porn addiction is an absolute bastard
i dont know wether its my general mood or life circumstances but i keep on reverting back to think about said person i will never meet them or anyone like them i would imagine so i should just either forget or dont let it get to me too much , which it isnt but it has thr potential to effect my thoughts and mood. and at the same time kind of dont want to forget either. lifes kind of a bitch dont know this person but kind of infatuated eith the idea of this person and the way they present themselves