I’m 29 about to be 30. My mom was a teenager when she had me. She used to leave me with my grandma while she would go out and party and go one vacations leaving me behind. It almost feels like she was forced to spend time with me. She used to tell me to go away and she would pretend spray “kid spray” and that was my cue to leave her alone. She wasn’t the warmest to me. She used to tell me “don’t have kids they ruin your body and your life” My dad was in prison for most of my life. The last time I saw him I was 6, he died in 2020 of a heart attack. It was drug induced. I feel like I’m behind emotionally compared to everyone else. Like I can’t control my emotions. I live at home with my mom and my step dad because rent is crazy. I drive a very beat up old car. I just feel like I’m emotionally behind? I mean everyone leaves home at some point and I haven’t left. My mom is better now that I’m older but I can’t help but feel like I’m not emotionally stable?
