I’m sitting here in my bedroom which is filled with trauma. So much has happened here. I’m going to move out soon but I’m just so tired and can’t hold the urges back anymore.
I’m afraid I’m gonna sh or even … you know.
I can’t do this anymore, flashbacks, urges, thoughts…
I’m going to discharge from psych ward on Thursday (after 10 months) but I’m not stable at all. And if I’m going to hurt myself or even try to end it, they could kick me out and my parents would know.
They don’t really know about my traumatic experiences that caused DID, seizures, depression, OCD, Ed and all my destructive tendencies (thoughts etc..).
I’m almost 2 months clean from cutting but I think that’s all.
I could sh just to prevent an attempt. But Idk