I’m 24 and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, general anxiety and ptsd (medical field work related). Since then I’ve improved so much on certain parts of my life, but one area that hasn’t improved is my self value. It’s never been great, if I’m not at the tip I feel like a failure and when I’m there it feels more like a “this is where I should be” rather than an achievement. This is in all aspects of my life, from sports to gaming to dating to academics to even the gym. I can’t help but feel like I’m never enough and that because I’m not like others who excel in these respective fields that I provide nothing. Even when I go to the gym or do stuff I enjoy it’s only temporary till the activity is over and then I go back to hating myself. I’ve delegated myself to being the parent friend as that’s the only time I feel needed. I have no clue how to fix it anymore.
