I’m really struggling after a complicated situation with a guy I met on Tinder. We clicked instantly, sharing many interests and values, and after a few dates, things progressed quickly. However, we soon encountered trust issues. He went through my phone without permission, misinterpreted what he saw, and accused me of talking to other guys. Despite my efforts to clarify things, he didn’t believe me and broke things off. In a moment of desperation, I even reached out to his mom (who doesn’t even know me), which I regret. We tried to reconcile, but he expressed that he found me too needy and co-dependent, and ultimately, he ended things, citing his own personal issues and the need for space. I was deeply invested in this relationship, especially since I lost my virginity to him. This was all in a span of one month, and I truly liked him and wanted to be with him for the long term. I’m strongly mourning what could’ve been. I feel like this is all my fault.
I just want to call him and text him to work things out, but I know it would do more harm than good if I did that right now.
Now, I’m left wondering if I should hold onto hope that he might return, or if it’s even wise to consider giving us another shot, considering how things ended. What should I do to improve my chances of getting back together, or should I let go?
I’ve been in tears all day and very suicidal. I always feel this peaceful wave whenever I think about my death or dying. Especially after this situation.
