i feel like i had so much potential before i got depressed, when i was a kid i was super smart and i was happy, i feel like i couldve gotten into a great school and done stem or something but im doing a useless major cause thats all i can handle mentally… its hard enough to get out of bed. i just have resentment towards the past and feel so devastated by how much depression and anxiety has ruined my life. i feel embarrassed to even tell people cause it sounds so dumb or corny when i say i dont want to be alive, but deep down im miserable
