I post here because I have a feeling this is something mentally related.
I have no idea what to do anymore. This semester was really rough with both my grandfathers passing away within months of each other, but despite that I should’ve been able to get back to work right? For some reason, I dont even know, I have no desire to do anything. The only things I want are baseball and tv shows. I have no drive to do any of my work and despite having so much time to work on it I’d rather go to sleep or scroll on my phone all day. I dont pay attention to classes and would rather swipe through instagram all day. Even as I’m writing this I’m in the middle of class and have no desire to participate. I hate my life rn and I dont know what to do. I’m so afraid of telling my parents that Im going to fail this semester because I dont want to do the work. I’m afraid that I’m going to put myself and my parents in debt attempting to get a degree that I have no interest in pursuing. The worst part is that I actually really want to do college and graduate. But everything they teach is neither interesting nor capable of grabbing my attention. My adhd meds are supposed to help but instead they make me feel like I’m on crack and about to throw up. I end up focusing on everything else. I have no idea what to do anymore. I’m overwhelmed with everything and I’m in a constant state of just not caring. I know it needs to be done. I scream to get it done. But nothing works and I’m giving up. It should be noted I hardly sleep at night because my roommate plays LoL till 4am.
Last note: I cannot drop out its not an option
What should I do?
