This is my first post here and I don’t even really know what to say because it all seems so stupid.
I am kind of shy, not super outgoing unless I’m in a group I’m comfortable in.
I have a few friends but none that I’m super close with. I’m in a long term relationship but I feel like it’s going to fail because of me.
For years I’ve been questioning if people really like me, or if I’m a burden, an annoyance, a problem, weird, creepy etc…
It prevents me from going to group events, talking to new people, meeting to people, even making me think I need to dress conservatively because of the way I look. I never want to make anyone uncomfortable but I constantly think I am.
I convinced myself that I’m a pedophile out of the blue. I have never had an attraction towards children and all and I don’t even now. I guess I’m scared that people think I am a creep, but literally for no reason. I don’t even know any children tbh. I just am so uncomfortable about this I don’t even know why. I don’t even watch p*rn. I am super uncomfortable talking about anything sexual at all tbh.
I guess I don’t know if I should see a therapist, but also I don’t feel like my life is bad enough to be going to one. Plus idek what I would say if I went. I also don’t want to weird them out.