When I was 12 years I had social anxiety disorder It happened cause one of my best friends bullied me that year for no reason and was my friends neglected me in summer vacation
When ai had it I know something was wrong in me but I didn’t know it’s called social anxiety
People in school when I first had it called me shy but with time and cause the bullying persisted I began to really suffer cause people were calling me mentally ill behind my back and treating me differently
Imagine being a 12 year old kid being called mentally ill and don’t know what’s your illness is and can it be treated or not (it really hurts me till now)
Some assholes then in high school bullied me cause of it they were saying to me your mentally ill and laughing ofcurse I couldn’t respond cause my self esteem was very low and I knew something was wrong with me( but I didn’t know my diagnosis) some were saying behind my back I have something in my head despite they really don’t know me and my past(I was very sociable ad a kid and popular in school and class clown had plenty of friends,my friends literally were arguing with each other for whom will sit beside me back then) all of these memories still affect me till
And cause I wasn’t told by my parents or anyone what’s my mental disorder back then I spent 10 years of my life thinking I have kind of disability and I had like a delusion that people will laugh at me and percieve me as mentally ill as many did before
Till now I still get these thoughts despite I am 100% sure I only used to suffer from social anxiety nothing more .Sometimes when I am about to socialize with a stranger I feel like he will label me as mentally ill and anxious thoughts begin to happen saying that I might have another mental disorder and I am rember when someone I didn’t know cause he was told by a friend of his about my disorder back then he spoke behind my back and I literally heared him saying I have something in my head and another friend of his said That I am dumb
Help
