Starting in August I will going college, and for a number of reasons I am quite anxious.
The biggest reason is I struggle with interacting with people. I can hold up a conversation decently well but I never initiate. Almost anytime I’m around a conversation I want to add something just to feel like I’m noticed, but I never can find the courage or strength to. I can never talk to the people I want to because I’m too scared. I can never add into a conversation because I’m too scared. Even in a class setting I struggle to speak sometimes. It’s not that I struggle with English or anything, I just have anxiety and fear of speaking because I think that people just hate me for existing sometimes. Me personally I’ve always struggled with the difference between opinion and fact when it comes to individuals. How do I know if someone is being mean because they choose to be, or if they are just right about the things they say about me. It is because of this anxiety I have lost out on a lot of things. I’m never invited to parties or included in things. I’m in the high school Bandai feel it is the one place where I am valued and appreciated, but once I go to college, I feel like that won’t be the case anymore.